Take Away the Pain, Not Your Life!

What is there to know about successful suicide attempts? It is an action a person takes that echoes into eternity. It begs the question, can there truly accept it, is no there cannot exist peace for someone who committed suicide? Can there be real rest? The answer is, no matter how painful and hard it is to accept it.

No, there cannot exist peacefully in the afterlife for such a person. We do not need to get into technical reasons about that in this article that’s not the purpose of this read today. The technical reasons about that in this article that is not the purpose of this read today. God wants you to know that there is a way for you to end your pain and suffering, without needing to end your life.

“I lost my mother when I was 1 1/2 years old. I never knew her. In reality, I thought my aunt was my mother, but I always noticed she treated me differently than the other kids she had. I didn’t have a normal childhood like most kids, I would say honestly, I didn’t even really have a childhood at all. All this time I thought my aunt was my mother, not knowing she died when I was a baby until my dad told me the truth.

This was the start of my pain. As I grew older and my body developed more, the deacon in the old church I was attending started to sexually molest me and while this was happening, a close family friend was sexually assaulting me. I was afraid to speak up. But at the moment I gathered the courage to do so. When I was younger, I told my dad and, he did the same thing to me. I held a grudge against them for many years. I felt sad, depressed, and lonely because people told me I was useless, ugly, and would never amount to anything in life.

As a teenager, I tried taking my life two times. The first was by swallowing a fistful of pills. I thought it would work, but I woke up two days later, still alive. The second attempt was four months after my first son was born. I was just 18 at the time it was a pills attempt again. My son’s father saw me and made me vomit the pills out before they could kill me. At that time, I was at such a low point and did not want to live anymore. I knew there was a God out there because I would go to church. I did not want my son growing up without his mother as I did. So, I knew I needed to fight, but in all the churches I went to. I never could experience God’s power in my own life.

All of this changed when I found the Universal Church. The pastor and his wife helped me in prayers and taught me how to make a Chain of Prayer. I kept coming faithfully each week, and God healed me from the inside out. He first removed the grudges and gave me the strength I needed to finally forgive everyone who hurt me. I no longer have depression and suicidal thoughts. After much sacrifice, I was baptized in the Holy Spirit. I am a different person today. I no longer have any desire to die; now, I want to live and serve God with my life.